When plays get done but plays aren’t being written, it’s like using plumbing or computers but having no one around who actively plumbs or programs. Your knowledge base gets finicky and fix-oriented.
Category: Journal Snippets
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September 13, 2001

8:57 am
Sitting here in Bryant Park. First time back in Manhattan since the tragedy. It feels good to be here. Just to feel it still here under my feet. To see the Empire State standing tall to the South (in spite of a harrowing bomb threat last night. Heather said then exactly what I was thinking: “I don’t know if I could take it if that goes down as well.”
Been reeling through my brain trying to think of what I can do to be of some use. Oh to be of use! The best I can come up with— it struck me this morning— is to switch gears and start thinking about my most ethereal idea of all, The Good Ship Manhattan.
9:51 am
Sitting on one of the benches at 51st and 6th. Things seem lighter and quieter than usual as far as foot traffic goes in this part of the city. People seem stern for the most part. And whatever conversations I do overhear are all, without exception, related to the attack….
10:56 am
Waiting for the library to open. It must be at 11 ‘cuz so many people are standing outside. I just wanna return Typee.
Went by H’s office just a few minutes ago since I couldn’t reach her by phone. The day’s going normally hectic busy for her and she says she’s vaguely offended by that.
1:28 pm
Heather’s building got a bomb scare serious enough apparently to result in the authorities shutting down the building until further notice, at least until Monday.
Air still has a slight taint of acrid smoke that was so strong this morning that it woke me up, poisoned my dreams.
Still no access to internet from home. Got a glance at my emails from Heather’s desk at work, but was only able to reply to DSP. Might try the Woodside library today later or tomorrow.
5:51 pm
Had a run in with some adolescent boys at the library this afternoon that I’m not terribly proud of but, given the frustration I was feeling after trying to deal with my huge backlog of email, seems inevitable. They were back-sassing an older lady librarian who had asked them to leave. I told them, among other things, that they should shut up and do as she says, and that given what’s going on, it was time for them to start acting like citizens. Silly, I know, but it inspired me to come home and write an open letter to community organizations (schools, fire houses, police stations,) offering whatever services I can….
9:59 pm
Guess we all have to ride this terrible wave for as long as it holds us under.
Caring for each other is the beginning and undoubtedly the end.
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Why Curt Dempster Commissioned Me to Write THE SEQUENCE

My Dec. 29, 2007 journal speculation on why Curt Dempster, now deceased Founding Artistic Director of Ensemble Studio Theatre, commissioned me to write The Sequence, which dramatizes the race to decode the human genome: a race accelerated and sharpened by bio-tech entrepreneur J. Craig Venter.
“Curt wanted me to tell this story ‘cuz he recognized in Craig a kindred spirit: a kinless prickly genius who gets things done.”
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While Working on The Ten Thousand Things

8/17/07
Still chewing on this Fisherman revision. Have to get it right. Has to be remarkable. Can’t just sit there like a placeholder, prosaic and flabby. Needs to be sharp and murky, like an exchange of knives.
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Prior to Starting Work on My Still Unproduced Farce

8/7/07 – 5:0? PM
If I do this grudge play it has to be in the spirit of Wilder. It has to seem silly and overly earnest and then cut to the bone and then throw up its hands and say, “Oh, no, no you misunderstand. Forget that last part. I really AM just silly and overly earnest.” It has to ring a bell true and then say, “Who me? What? Ring a bell? Well, yes, I guess I have. But I didn’t mean anything by it. Honest.”
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While Simultaneously Reading Stephen Jay Gould and Larry McMurtry

For reasons I would rather not get into I have taken to re-reading all my journals since I started handwriting them into marble comp books back in 1997. (I was typing for a living at the time and wanted to spare my wrists keyboarding my personal thoughts. I never went back to a digital.) The review is a pretty tedious endeavor. I wish I had described a lot less of my career woes and a lot more of my physical delights, but youth is ever wasted on the baselessly self-fascinated. Every so often as I read, however, I run across a little snippet, or string of them, that pleases me such that it prompts a desire to share.
9/26/07
. . . . Surprisingly, I find a deep correspondence between the Gould and the McMurtry. Both maintain—one overtly, the other subtly and subversively and ultimately more convincingly—that life has no plan, no forward progress, not even dominant echoes or themes; just the faintest hints of them. Contingency is all and contingency is one brutal motherfucker.
