Just Wrought

Recovering playwright, once won a STRANGER Genius Award for theater. Now writing a bloated novel about… G-d help me! Theatre.

Tag: Susan Blackmore

  • On Collaborating with Luck

    On Collaborating with Luck

    I wrote this note in my journal a day or two prior to the world premiere of one of my plays:

    12/7/–
    I believe [actor] will rise to something with this show. I have to believe that and I do. When we give up totally on luck, when we try to drive it meanly into the narrowest of margins of pure reason, that’s when it really lashes out nasty. This is a project that ran on luck: good fortune and good will—from the get go. I can believe it’s going to abandon us now. It’s practically a collaborator.

    Let me stipulate to an important point from the outset. Of course luck —strictly speaking— doesn’t exist. But that fact doesn’t exclude the notion from having a profound effect on the preponderance of people who believe in it. For that matter, the list of things that do not—strictly speaking—exist, but that still affect believers—and often non-believers, too—via the membrane of consciousness, is long and evocative:

    • Faith
    • Fate
    • Hope
    • Love
    • Justice
    • Free will
    • Evil
    • Life after death
    • Etc.

    Arguments for the non-existence of all of these have been convincingly and consistently posited. Even consciousness itself has been advocated for inclusion in this group of “things-we-ardently-believe-in-but-should-understand-do-not-actually-exist”. See the works of Daniel Dennett and Suzanne Blackmore for relatively compelling arguments in this vein.

    So why should grown rational human beings even indulge in considerations of luck at all? Well, I would contend that perhaps it pays to pay attention to luck in the same ways it pays to give notions such as “free will” and “consciousness” the benefit of the doubt. Belief in luck might be a bit like being able to see the grid of a chess board: ultimately unnecessary, but plainly helpful in playing the game.

    ASPECTS OF LUCK

    Here are some things most of believe about luck:

    • Luck follows luck. Or, restated: luck, good and bad, comes in runs.
    • Luck runs out.
    • Luck favors the prepared.
    • Good karma brings good luck. (In the West we tend to egregiously conflate the notions of “luck” and “karma”. In places where karma is contemplated as an article of faith, the concepts are quite separate.)
    • Even losers get lucky sometimes.

    Regardless of whether we believe in luck, all of these propositions require us to notice it. It’s this noticing that gives luck its power.

    MY LUCKY WEEK

    I have a lucky week and it’s coming up. In my early teens I started noticing  that good things happened for me on March 10th, which is also my half-birthday. Coincidence? I think not. Luck scorns coincidence. Later, in my 20’s, I began noticing that fortune tended to concentrate its beam on me throughout the entire week, from March 10th through March 17th.  Notice that? My lucky week has eight days. Why? Well, duh! ‘Cuz it’s LUCKY!

    I have landed several jobs in my lucky week. I have opened several plays that turned out to be important and favorable for my career in the theatre. My wife was born on March 16, the second to last day of my Lucky Week. Indeed, she has started to piggy back on the Lucky Week’s power, having had some very fortunate things happen for her within its span.

    Some superstitious sorts might argue that talking about my Lucky Week is about the least lucky thing I could do, tantamount to abrogating all of its effects. I call horseshit on this. The very essence of the thesis I am tendering is that luck only matters, only exists, only has power, if we notice and celebrate it. In other words, the God of Luck to whom I pay reverence craves having reverence paid. The more I talk about my Lucky Week the more powerful it becomes, especially in this, the 49th year of my life. (I won’t digress to explain the particular puissance of seven’s square.)

    LUCK CONNECTS US TO THE INEFFABLE

    We are a pattern-seeking species, a tendency which has served us well over the deca-millennia. Even when the patterns we saw weren’t, strictly speaking, real—dippers in the sky, the comings and goings of Persephone, regular chariot races of  sun and the moon– recognizing them still helped us survive and thrive.

    When we see luck running through the events of our lives, we palpate a substance that we have helped generate through our own hard work and tenacity. Luck connects us to the ineffable, to the patterns of life we can’t quite otherwise understand. Courting luck creates a working relationship with the otherwise overwhelming randomness of existence. By contemplating it we coax and kneed meaning out of meaninglessness. Sometimes it’s enough to realize just how lucky we are in any given moment, like striking a match and tossing it into a pitch dark well: perhaps a pointless gesture in the grander scheme of things, but our lives are short, and the grander scheme of things is often—no, almost always—beyond our ken. Luck is a map of the unknown and unknowable forces that buffet our lives. Of course it doesn’t exist. All models are wrong, but some models are useful.

    LUCK LIKES TO BE FED

    The professional golfer, Gary Player, widely recognized as one of the sport’s all-time greats, says “The harder I practice, the luckier I get.” And I say, with the approach of my Lucky Week in my Lucky Year, “From your mouth, Gary, to God’s non-existent ear.” After twenty-five years of working almost exclusively in the theatre, I have been working hard for several years now on a slate of new things: memoir, fiction, writing these essays and poetry. This March I could use a well-earned lucky break.

    PS I’m thinking this might be the first in a series of essays titled “In Praise of Unreal Things”. 

  • My Last Play Reading

    My Last Play Reading

    You might rightly judge that title to be half fib, depending on how you read it.  The upcoming public reading of  Philosophical Zombie Killers, happening on September 14 at 7:30 pm at Freehold Theatre, will certainly, and happily, not be the last public reading of a play of mine. The Sequence is scheduled to be read on October 12 at 2pm at the Bathhouse Theater at Green Lake.  (More details here.)  But Philosophical Zombie Killers is indeed my last full-length play. I have no plans to write another, and no great prospects for future full production of this, or any other play I have written. On September 15, the day after this reading, I will officially step away from the theatre. I have no plans to return. Of course threads of sadness run through this decision, but it is also interwoven with hope, and anticipation of new adventures. I hope you’ll wish me well. And if you can, I hope you’ll come see this reading. Here, below the fold, is the press release with all the info:

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  • Attention Must be Paid — Guess Where?

    Attention Must be Paid — Guess Where?

    … A man asked the Zen master Ikkyu  to write down some words of great wisdom.  Ikkyu wrote”attention”.  Not satisfied, the man asked for some more, so Ikkyu wrote “attention, attention”.  Still not satisfied, he demanded more, and Ikkyu wrote “attention, attention, attention”.

        From Ten Zen Questions, by Susan Blackmore.   

    I just finished reading Nicholas Carr’s new book, The Shallows: What the Internet is Doing to our Brains, and while I cannot recommend it as an exquisite sample of sparkling prose, I was impressed by the arguments and research provided therein.  A counter to the glib digital cheerleaders from Google to Face Book, The Shallows essentially demonstrates how our addiction to computers and the internet is literally rewiring our brains.

    I won’t regurgitate all of Carr’s evidence here.  After all, this is a blog and I have to keep it snappy or you’ll click on to something grabbier.  His conclusions, however, are stunning enough to keep even the most attention-deficited mouse-finger paralyzed for a moment.

    Navigating the Web requires a particularly intensive form of mental multitasking.  In addition to flooding our working memory with information, the juggling imposes what brain scientists call “switching costs” on our cognition.  Every time we shift our attention , our brain has to reorient itself, further tasking our mental resources.  As Maggie Jackson explains … “the brain takes time to change goals, remember the new rules needed for the new task, and block out cognitive interference from the previous, still-vivid activity.  Many studies have shown that switching between just two tasks can add substantially to our cognitive load, impeding our thinking and increasing the likelihood that we’ll over look or misinterpret important information.

    In short, Web-surfing is a hyperactive exercise in short-term memory.  Carr walks us through some fascinating research that shows our brains do not store memory at all like computers do.

    Kobi Rosenblum, who heads the Department of Neurobiology and Ethology at the University of Haifa… has done extensive research on memory consolidation.  One of the salient lessons to emerge … is how different biological memory is from computer memory.  “… Long term memory creation in the human brain,” he says, “is one of the incredible processes which is so clearly different than ‘artificial brains’ like those in a computer.  While an artificial brain absorbs information and immediately saves it in its memory, the human brain continues to process information long after it is received, and the quality of memories depends on how the information is processed.”  Biological memory is alive.  Computer memory is not.

    Those who celebrate the “outsourcing” of memory to the Web have been misled by a metaphor.  They overlook the fundamentally organic nature of biological memory.  What gives real memory its richness and its character, not to mention its mystery and fragility, is its contingency.  It exists in time, changing as the body changes.   Indeed, the very act of recalling a memory appears to restart the entire process of consolidation, including the generation of proteins to from new synaptic terminals.  Once we bring an explicit long-term memory back into working memory, it becomes a short-term memory again.  When we reconsolidate it, it gains a new set of connections—a new context.…   Biological memory is in a perpetual state of renewal.  The memory stored in a computer, by contrast, takes the form of distinct and static bits, you can move the bits from one storage drive to another as many times as you like, and they will always remain precisely as they were.

    Human beings are compelled to impute some version of our own consciousness to nearly anything and everything we see, so long as it appears to change.  Even trees in a breeze can seem eerily aware to us.  One theory holds that on the evolutionary timeline the suspicion of consciousness in other beings actually proceeded full-blown consciousness in ourselves.  That is, we learned to think by first learning to predict what others might be thinking—even if they weren’t actually thinking.  “As if” gave birth to “as is.” (And now my Web-scrambbled brain suddenly retrieves one of The Onion’s most brilliant Point/Counterpoints: My Computer Totally Hates Me! vs. God, Do I Hate That Bitch.)

    Carr quotes Jason Mitchell, head of Harvard’s Social Cognition and Affective Neuroscience Lab: 

    The “chronic overactivity of those brain regions implicated in social thought” can, writes Mitchell, lead us to perceive minds where no minds exist, even in inanimate objects.”  There’s growing evidence, moreover, that our brains naturally mimic the states of the other minds we interact with, whether those minds are real or imagined.

    By believing the internet is somehow “intelligent”, we are literally rewiring ourselves to be as stupid, scattered and shallow as it is.  One thing missing from The Shallows is an antidote to the neural degeneration that Carr so assiduously documents.  Can you guess the one I might suggest?

    Theatre brooks no distraction. You are trapped in a dark room and forced to impute “intelligence” to the brains of actors.  In the theatre, four dimensions of time and space merge to a singular awareness, and the barrier between “within-you” and “without-you” blurs.  You can zero in on the action or zone out of it, but wherever your attention wanders it eventually has to come back, whether you like it or not, to where you sit and what you see and hear from there.  (This is why bad theatre is so stupendously more excruciating to sit through than bad film or television.)  The light your eyes receive is inextricably bound to the air that vibrates your eardrums, activated as it is by the breath of an actor and shared in the lungs of everyone present.  Shakespeare was wrong—or, more likely, purposefully lying—when he suggested that the stage is a place for illusion.  Theatre is nothing but concentrated actuality.  We should all go once in a while if only to pay ourselves some simple human attention.